diary; 19th June

There are many reasons for not being able to sleep; the habit of sleeping late, stress, some emotion, some event that happened today. Whatever.

But I don't think tonight it's one of those. I know this feeling. Had it a couple of times before. It's.. me not having done the things I was supposed to do today. That shit always keeps me up at night. Every night I evaluate myself. Asking myself the question whether I did something today that contributes to my goals and mission. I assume that a lot of people have thought about the reasons why they are put on earth. And most of the people who thought about that, gained some sort of focus, direction and commitment to something in their lives. I believe I was put on this earth for something bigger than myself, and I believe that everybody has some sort of need to contribute beyond themselves.

And if you don't contribute to yourself and the world, or don't do it enough...you will know.

Holy crap, I just realized that many people have difficulties falling asleep. Some of them are my friends. When I ask them why they can't sleep at night, they never seem to be able to answer that question. They don't really know. And now I am wondering if it could be an universal principal. That if you fail to put effort in finding your purpose, contribute beyond yourself and use your talents, you consciously or unconsciously KNOW. They should do some scientific research about this.